I want to know which part of me is missing. I need to find out when it disappeared, because lately I’m such a stranger to myself. I’m wondering if this happens to everyone. Maybe we all lose our way, maybe we’re supposed to and who we are after the change is who we’re meant to be. I’m not afraid of change, I just wish I could be who I was 3 years ago. There’re things about the new me that I love, I’m truer to my emotions and I don’t deal in people’s bullshit feuds, but at the end of the day, the new me is so numb, so detached. I find myself wishing for all the senseless bickering and bitching of 3 years ago to come back so that the smiling and the laughing will come back too.